Tuesday, April 5, 2016

"D" is for Daddy

OK so the first word that comes to mind with letter “D” is Daddy so i Dedicate this post to him.   I recently just lost my precious dearest Daddy in January (12) and I am still struggling with Depression every single day.  There are moments that I literally just do the hard ugly cry and sob within minutes and no warning.  (Thankfully most of those moments are when I’m on way home or already at home from office). 
My dad had a double lung transplant almost 3 years ago  (July to be exact) and I truly expected to have another 20 years with him at least.  Daddy was 66 years old and lived life to the fullest. 
I miss him so so much. I’m buying my first house and its not too far from his.  He isn’t here to see that.  I need his advice and I have so many more questions that I needed to talk to him about.
If you still have your Daddy- call him, hug him so tight, give him kisses and tell him how much you love him.  
That's Dad in his Burt Reynolds/Tom Selleck days . 





He walked me down the aisle 5 weeks after his transplant.  


I used to love watching and listening to him play his guitar. This was one of my favorites he would play.  Seven Spanish Angels with Ray Charles and Willie Nelson.

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  1. Hi, dear Holli!

    It doesn't surprise me that your dad is your D topic. Clearly it will take time before the spontaneous crying spells come to an end. Perhaps they never will, but it's okay to cry. Your emotional state reflects what a great man your dad was and how much he meant to you in your life. I am amazed by how much he looks like Burt Reynolds and Tom Selleck in those older pictures. You look so happy in all those pictures with him and my heart goes out to you as you continue to mourn his loss.

    Thank you, dear Holli, for telling us more about your wonderful dad and for sharing that song performed by Ray Charles and Willie Nelson. I enjoyed it!

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    1. He was just so handsome and gave the best daddy bear hugs!
      I'm glad you liked the song. I love it so much.

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  2. This is an opinion, of course, but I think your dad is right there with you during this move (and everything else). You're his girl. He wouldn't just leave the building completely. He's that whisper in your ear, that sudden burst of happiness, that peaceful feeling in your heart. All that and more.

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    1. I agree. I don't "feel" him yet as much as I do my grandpa that passed away many years ago. We were super close too. I probably just need to slow down and get settled to notice daddy more. Thank you so much for the sweet reminder.

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  3. Oh, I wish I could say I miss my father. He passed away from mean and "morbid obesity" in 2010.
    But, just so you don't think it's all pitiful, I miss the stepfather who died in 1996. He was a dad.

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    1. Well to add to being Debbie Downer- I also was blessed with an amazing stepdad but he passed last year in January. I lost both dads in January. Its not my favorite month.
      So glad you had a great stepdad!!

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  4. Sorry for your loss it is a rough thing to deal with

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    1. Thanks Mike- one day at a time. Its very rough indeed.

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  5. My heart goes out to you Holli. I know how hard it is to lose one's Daddy. I lost mine at 15 years old. The pictures you chose, show many many sides to the man and so many season of his life. Makes me feel like I knew him

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    1. Thanks so much Barbara for the sweet words. I am so so sorry you lost your dad at such a young age. I cant imagine. I just miss him so much I cant breathe sometimes.

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  6. lost my dad to suicide when I was only 7. I don't really have any true memories of him. Your dad was very handsome. I know he is watching over you and will always be in your heart!

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    1. I do hope and pray that he is near me at times as my angel. I am sorry you don't have memories of your dad that you can reflect on. 7 is so young to lose someone. Having 47 years of memories with Daddy us unbearable at times though. Wasn't he just so handsome!!

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  7. Oh, Holli,
    I've been tearful off and on, having recently lost my dad (over the holidays) too. Big hugs and loving thoughts to you.
    Thanks for the message; it'll be on its way soon.

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    1. I send big hugs and love back to you and I am so sorry I haven't been any support to you for your loss. I am trying to be better at that. xoxo

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  8. My Dad liked 'Seven Spanish Angels' too. I miss him. It's only (?) been six years.

    Be well, Holli.

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    1. Oh Miss Dixie- 6 years is like last week sometimes. I am sure you miss him every single day like I do. I love hearing this song and thinking of daddy playing and singing this. SO good!!

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  9. I know how hard it is to lose a father. Mine died two years ago. It still feels like he died a few weeks ago. It hurts whenever I think about him and realize I can't call support or advice. Fortunately, I have a strong faith, which can be very comforting.

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    1. I do have my faith and I cant imagine going thru the loss without it. Not going to lie though, many times my anger has been what got me up out of bed. I know GOD can take me being mad at him because I get over it quickly but I still have my moments!

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  10. "and seven Spanish angels... took another angel home..."

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  11. D is for devotion...and daughter...

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