Monday, March 20, 2017

When life gets hard

Hey everyone ( those that are even still around and didnt give  up on me), i cant believe its been over a month since my last post.  These last few weeks , life has been really hard.  There's always good to mix with it but combined its just been a lot! My mom flew in from Montana on February 16 to stay the month with us. During her long stay, she normally is passed around and stays with other family members  to visit. My grandma ( Nanny) went into the hospital on Saturday morning the 18th and has been there ever since. It began being just routine stay at hospital due to inflammation and swelling in her leg.  Nanny has diabetes and has a bad leg wound that wont heal. Its something we monitor very closely and its no big deal to go for a week once or twice a year to have IV's of antibiotic flow through for the infection and then have a wound nurse treat her leg when shes home.  She went in for that but then other things were found while having tests that werent good.  Things have been very touch and go and there was a few tense days and nights that we weren't sure she was going to make it through the night.   Having Mom here during all this has been a blessing because we've been driving to east Texas every weekend to see Nanny in the hospital and i know it would be even harder if Mom was still in Montana.  Its also been very emotional because for the first few weeks we were told that Nanny would be released so the plan was for Mom to go stay the week with her and take care of her but of course that never happened. Nanny continued to get worse and even had to be transported by ambulance to another hospital that was better equipped to take care of things such as dialysis that the other previous hospital didnt have.  She was in and out in daze and didnt recognize anyone or know why she was there. It was so hard to see her that way. She was swollen and in pain and it was heartbreaking. They got her started on dialysis and it made huge improvements! Nanny is now awake and can talk and recognizes everyone.  She just needs her kidneys to function.  We dont know whats next. Either she will be released to go home and have home healthcare assist and she will continue to get dialysis in nearby town a few times a week  or she may have to go straight to an assisted living center.
Mom has chronic Lupus as i think most of yall are aware of.  Stress makes lupus flare up and she's had some painful Lupus breakouts on her face, in her nose, on her head, etc.  She barely weighs 100 pounds and its been very hard to see Mom break down for fear of losing Nanny.  Emotions have been very high.  She also has very weak immune system due to Lupus which means its not good for her to hang out night and day at a hospital with all the other germs.  She feels bad that she cant be there everyday like her brother ( my uncle).  We 're doing what we can though because the hospital she's in is 3 hours away one way.  A lot of time in the car and that also wears Mom out.
The last 3 weeks i was also in a huge point of my job where i was training classes every day monday thru Friday for 4 hours a day.  That was 2 weeks straight.  There's been a lot of pressure and its still regarding our merge conversion so these people are just not happy at all to switch new systems that i'm training.  I finally was able to take one day off last week so that i could spend the day with Mom and i drove her to the hospital.   We have still managed to do some things that are fun and not stay completely in the house or go to hospital. We've had some visits with my friends that are also friends with Mom.  Mom and i went to see The Shack last Sunday and we've eaten out a lot. Todd has been traveling quite a bit too.
I also have a very very special dear friend that was diagnosed positively with prostrate cancer last week. Dr's said its not growing aggressively but its at medium speed. He goes in for consultation in a few weeks to determine which treatments he'll be doing , etc.   Makes me sad and scared but i know they can beat this since its been found early on.
I know i have also mentioned a few times about my friends grandson in Boston. Ari was on a heart transplant list and was also getting worse every week. Just before Christmas, the Dr's said that Ari couldnt go home until he leaves with a new heart.  By Gods Grace he got his transplant a few weeks ago too.  Just found out today that his little body is rejecting it. THEN their home has black mold and they have to completely demolish the home and rebuild and insurance isnt paying a dime. My poor friends are really dealt with some hard things right now.
I have missed blogging. Usually when i get so super stressed, i blog because it helps and its an emotional outlet. I literally didnt have time or the energy to post until today.  I feel like Debbie Downer and Doom and Gloom but i cant help it.   I am also so thankful and blessed to what i Do have and things going right.
I have missed my blogging friends and i hope 6 weeks dont go by again unless its something wonderful.  Oh and this Friday i am having gallbladder surgery. I've been in lots of pain and looking forward to hoping it eases up.
Life is hard but we just have to keep plugging along and take advantage of all windows of opportunity to do what you can .
Mom and i were in traffic and not even moving for 12 minutes so we took selfie
This is the day that Mom arrived
Quick selfie of brother and me with Mom
Had dinner with inlaws one night

Took Mom for yummy BBQ and fried okra
Lunch with friend Wendy and mom after church
My cousin Monya and myself with our sweet Nanny
Mom and Nanny
When the kids came we got into hot tub later that evening. So fun!

13 comments:

  1. Wow... that's a lot on the plate. Just keep in mind our reward is in the next life, and no matter what gets thrown at us now, it will make our reward that much better. Hang in there.

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    1. Thanks Chris- have no other choice but to keep going. I am just hoping this is a short wave.

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  2. Hi, Holli!

    I had just started to comment on your post when Mrs. Shady called me away for dinner. Now I'm back. One the one hand it is wonderful to see a new post from you but, on the other, it makes me sad to know that you have so many stressful events unfolding in your life again this year.

    God bless Nanny. I'm terribly sorry to learn that she has been confined to a hospital bed and battling a series of medical problems. Mercifully the dialysis is making a big difference in her condition. She certainly looks well in that picture. Your mother looks fit as a fiddle in these pictures, too, in spite of her Lupus, and it is always good to see you with a smile on your face even if it is a brave smile that masks all the stress you have been going through. Your friends, their grandson in Boston and your other friend diagnosed with prostrate cancer all have mountains to climb. With you as a devoted, caring friend how can they lose? I hope you are taking care of yourself whenever possible. I salute you for being able to put your worries out of your mind and focus on your training duties at work. That's the mark of a true professional. Seemingly as a footnote, an afterthought, you mentioned that you will undergo gallbladder surgery this week. You are amazing, Holli! Please know that my thoughts and prayers will be with you and with all of your loved ones.

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    1. Shadestar, you always know just to what to say! Thank you for your sweet comment. As rough as its been, i know that it could always be worse. Chin up!!

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  3. Why does it seem that it never stops! I'm sorry for all that you are going through! I just don't understand why God keeps piling it on some of us!! Keep your faith lady!! I'll say a prayer or two!!

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    1. Thanks Lady, i appreciate any prayers you send this way. Its been quite the handful lately but its got to give soon.

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  4. Oh hon, sorry for all the sadness and stress. Keep your beautiful smile.

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    1. Thanks sweet friend- smile is on , chin is up. Big panties on!

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  5. My heart bleeds for you dear. That's a lot to bear at one time, but life seems to work that way. Prayers for healing, strength and peace for all of you that you may get back to the joy of living.
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    1. Thanks so much Barbara!! Its good to hear from you. I wont turn down any prayers thats for sure. Have a great day!

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  6. We've missed you, Holli, but with all that has been/is going on for you right now, we'll be happy when things settle down and you're blogging regularly. Healing prayers for your Nanny and Mom and for your friend with prostate cancer and for your upcoming surgery. Praying for a miracle for Ari and for strength for his parents with all they have to deal with in the house situation.

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    1. Thanks so much for your sweet comment Pamela. Not only have a missed blogging but i've missed reading blogs too.
      Thank you for your prayers.

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  7. Oh my word Holli, I can't believe what you have been going through. I've been in Florida since March 4th helping my dad out who had broken his hip back in January, went through 4 weeks of rehab only to come home and blackout in his kitchen, fell hard to the floor. More hospital and now in rehab all over again. I had to go to the ER twice with hives from extreme stress. God bless all of us. You take care. ((Hugs))

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