We lost an amazing young man from my church (Chad) who was an assistant pastor for us. He died 2 weeks before his 40th birthday from cancer. He left behind a wife and 3 kids. Chad was a vibrant beautiful soul and it sucks! His was the first funeral. My dear friend Shari lost her mom that same week. She was in her 80's and was so sweet. I loved her dearly. She also passed from Stage 4 cancer but hers was very sudden. She didn't know she had cancer until 2 weeks before she passed. Chad on the other hand battled cancer for 3 years with tons of surgeries, radiation and chemo.
I was dreading this past weekend with Dad's anniversary so I drove to the beach 4.5 hours away for a few days. I had not left Dallas and really went anywhere since June when my life imploded around me. I knew that seeing the waves would be comforting and it was. I drove to Galveston on Friday and came back early Sunday morning. I did a lot of crying but it was healing. I may have to do that more often. There are beaches in Texas that I haven't been to in ages or ever at all and I should make it a goal to visit some.
All in all, the new year has been a doozy but i'm hanging on. I still cry everyday yall and I am shocked that the well hasn't dried up yet. I guess its still part of the process. I made some dear friends from my DivorceCare class and we try to get together often. I'm so happy I met them. To have a group going thru same emotions is great. Kinda the whole Misery loves company idea but we build each other up.
My pool is still a scary green swamp and its stressing me out. I have someone coming this Friday to do a pool leak check. Fingers crossed its not serious. My gut feeling though has been really been nawing at me.
Hope all of you have been having a good year so far. Talk to you soon.
