I really really struggle with this person. Yall, I promise I'm not one of those paranoid people who think everyone is out to get me and I don't look for problems. Believe me when I tell you that my nemesis feels the same of me. In fact it's because of her hatred of me that has caused me so much grief and why I can't stand her. This sounds so petty as I write this out like a schoolgirl catfight.
This person "N" for Nemesis literally goes out of her way to get me in trouble, chastise, make me miserable.
N is a coworker. She even lives in a different state than me. However we work on the same application so i do have to have interaction. I pray for N. I pray for me to have strength to deal with N. Do you know how much that sucks when you have to think about and pray for your enemy after work hours? I will go to church and hear all about forgiveness then I'm saying to myself I can do this. I can forgive N and pray for her then I swear she will turn around and be hateful the next day. Endless battle! It's like we are two different religions that will never see eye to eye.
I rarely post anything real personal on Facebook. I said rarely. I do but not often. Anyway, last Friday I had a horrible day and N contributed mostly to that. I posted on FB that I HATE myself from feeling the way I do because of her. She presses those buttons that make me explode. I honestly don't know what to do. I don't think there is anything I can do differently. She is a mean horrible bully and always has been. I love my job besides her being with the company. She's not going anywhere either. I can only pray for a miracle. I pray that someone slaps her into tomorrow and she realizes she's a miserable lugnut! I have countless of crazy stories that you wouldn't believe of things she's done to me and said to me. I can't relive them now because I don't have time and my hot flashes are out of control today anyways.
The ironic thing is one of my sayings I'm known for repeating to my friends is " hate is a very strong word"! When people say I hate - I usually chime in with very much dislike. I'm a hypocrite now. I have hate in my heart. Just for this one person.
