The bittersweet part of this day is that its our first Father's Day without my stepdad Don. He passed this past January and I know this weekend is going to be so very tough on my baby brother. I miss my stepdad and cant believe he's gone. He lived in Oklahoma near my brother so it sometimes just seems that he's out of town and not really gone.
I've had a few father figures in my life and I am so blessed by every one of them. My parents divorced when I was 4 or 5 and we lived with my grandparents off and on a lot. My grandfather Poppy was there for me everyday. Its true when I say I was his favorite. No really I was. I loved to ride the motorcycle with him and I was his shadow. I would hang out in the garage with him for hours while he tinkered on the Harley. That never changed when I grew up. Poppy was my hero. I miss him more than anything and he's been gone for 17 years. I can cry right now because its still so strong of a loss.
In high school, my mom wanted to move a few cities over when I was a junior in high school. I was devastated because I was doing really well in school and I had made officer on my drill team. No way was I going to switch schools and start all over again. I had just transferred to that school my second semester of my freshman year. It just so happens that my uncle was wanting to move back to the country where we lived and he agreed to let me live with him so I didn't have to move and switch schools. Uncle James even bought my very first prom dress for my Junior-Senior prom. He had 3 sons and i was like a daughter to him. We had such a great year. I would come home from school and we would go fishing or even catch an early movie and he's a wonderful cook!! I was so grateful that he allowed me to live with him at such an important time. My mom , stepdad and brother lived less than an hour away and of course i had to check in with Mom every day and i spent most weekends with them.
My stepdad married Mom when i was 13. He was such a loving man who loved me like i was his own. Don is my role model for my stepkids i have today with Todd. Don taught me how to do the Texas two-step and the cotton eyed Joe. He was so patient and laid back which was good when i was a high strung emotional teenage girl! I couldn't ask for a better stepdad in my life. He supported me and encouraged me all through high school and college and everything after. Don was always proud me becoming a career woman and focusing on my job instead of settling down. Don was the only one that didn't harass me about when i was going to get married or have kids. I miss him so much.
Daddy and i didn't become really close until my junior year in high school. I always would visit him for a weekend here and there and when i was in elementary school he lived in Colorado. I flew there when i was 7 and spent the whole summer with him. Dad bought me my first car which was a '72 Datsun station wagon stick shift. I hated that car and it was always breaking down on me. My summer after graduation i worked for Dad in his office and he would deposit my paychecks in an account and would let me have an allowance. The money saved went towards my allowance when i went to college that fall semester. It was such a smart idea even though i didn't like not getting my whole paycheck every other week when i was working. Then when i transferred from junior college to a university i moved in with him. He was single at the time and lived very close to my school. We got to know each other more and got closer. Fast forward 5 years after college, i moved to Florida and was engaged to a guy named Jack. We only lasted 3 years and when i moved back to Texas, Daddy let me move back in with him until i got on my feet. Mom had moved to Wyoming when i was in college. The rest is history as they say. I've always lived pretty close to Dad and we have a great relationship. I couldn't even accept the possibility of losing him when he was so ill with his lung disease. The transplant has been the best thing in our lives!!
The songs i posted remind me of certain times or memories of my father figures in my life. I hope you have a great weekend and Happy Fathers Day y'all!!!














































